♥ Sunday, February 19, 2006 ♥
When i was young..my dad told me:" Treat everyone nicely, and they will treat u back the same way. If u do not wan anyone to treat u the way u hate most..then dun do it to others, cus others might hate it too"
Still rmb everything vividly, i was in primary sch, and my dad was holding my hand walking down the stairs,bringing me to sch, and i told him wad happened the day before. I told him happily, i said:" Papa! yesterday i found a wallet lying on the floor, i tink smone lost her wallet,so i bring the wallet to the general office." And my dad sayang me and said tt i did the right ting, tt person who lost her wallet must be very happy to able find her wallet back again. Then my dad said if one day i lost my wallet, and some kind soul were to bring the wallet back to me, i will be very happy too.And he asked me to imagine wad if i lost the wallet and tt person taken it and nv return to me. I replied instantly:" I WILL BE VERY SAD!" and tts when he told me the theory... and i'll always rmb dis theory..and from then on..i always bring it with me whereever i go..wadever i do......
But when i grow up.. till recently..i feel like asking him again.." What if i did my best and i treat them nicely but they still treat me the way i dun wan them to treat me? " Daddy i realise when people grow up, they are no longer as simple as wad we think they are..everything changes, they becum so scary..so scary..they no longer tink like hw they used to tink when they were a kid. most of them wear a mask..and they dun show the real self infront of u.. but i still keep to tt theory of urs..i trust ppl easily..bcus i tot if i trust them..they will trust me too..if i treat them well..they will treat me well too..i dun wan ppl to hate me for hw i treat them. Am i too childish to tink dis way??
Finally, i've stepped into this competitive..practical and cruel world of reality..and now.. im lost..lost in my own fairytale world.... let me tell u hw i feel...........
I feel exactly like a lost kid.. after the kid was told tt in this world there's no santa claus..after a few yrs of hoping santa will place some gifts under the christmas tree and suddenly come to realise tt santa claus was onli a character created to make children to look forward to christmas.
And feel exactly like after a kid was told tt.. there's no fairytale in dis world.. its onli a story created by some author.. some writer...and suddenly i came to realise.... im in a very realistic world.... and i have to grow up....
somtimes i rather.... i will nv grow up....
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